First,

I have to say it, I don't have courage for write. I'm hopeless now. I have a my writing but I can't post it in blog because I'm scared, if my writing can't be accepted. I like a broken toys and it can't repaired again. I know, I don't have to talk like this, but I don't have any power to fight back.

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Maybe I already really really broken. My family can't repaired. My parents...my brother and my sister...I don't have anything. I left in behind, in darkness, which I can't left. I don't have anybody. I'm so lonely here. I'm alone...

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I want to have courage. I want to have a power to fight back. I want to make my parents happy and proud to me. I want to show my brother an my sister that I can be like them. I want to show everyone who I am. I want to be great one. I want to realized my future.

But, 

Can I to do it?